An alteration

Thought I'd switch up the layout a little and put my notes first.

Notes. 12.46pm Maplewood

The heat and zephyr bring wafts of a rotting rat into the vicinity.

The flies swarm and fight over something that they could not kill themselves.

The situation is distasteful.

How could such a disgustingly brilliant creature manage to go that way?

Overgorwn weeds flourish through the cracks of an old walkway.

Vines grow up the side of the B wing of Columbia Highschool.

It sickens me to think about how I even attended such a poorly taken care of school.

1889 freshly built.

Rain is waiting to pour through the clouds to create a complete mess of this spoiled flesh.

How unfortunate.

Biodegradable.

Dear Mr. Butterfly,

Good luck trying to find a decent flower in this area.

Sincerly,

I.

I like umbrellas, they're odd creations, yet useful. My question is- when is it gonna feel like summer? It's almost August and geez louise it hasn't felt like summer this whole time...

It had it's fun moments and its plenty of bad ones.

I want to start dating. I wanna open up my soul to someone.

Got tons of shoes yesterday- maybe like 8 pairs haha. I needed them all mine started to smell. I got these rad grey ankleboots and I am in love with them. Too bad it rained today so I couldn't wear them... find them at- http://www.dsw.com/dsw_shoes/catalog/product.jsp?productRef=SEARCH&category=&prodId=193300

Sweet sounds

Beirut once said the most beautiful words I've ever heard. So honest and poetic,

"The shattered soul, following close but nearly twice as slow.

In my good times, there were always golden rocks to throw

at those who admit defeat too late

Those were our times, those were our times"

I want to speak beautiful words and scribe them onto paper. I want to do everything in a beautiful way- but what will that take?

Oh yeah so today I was told many times that I looked like Billie Holiday which is awesome haha it was how I did my hair and makeup.

I have an oversized white men's dress shirt that I plan to put together with this beautiful belt that I have that I got from Buffalo Exchange in Williamsburg Brooklyn. I can't wait to be free so I can wear it haha.

Notes. 7.47pm NJ

A dog scratches his itching skin to achieve alleviation however he breaks skin. Red. He takes a drink of water to hydrate himself. Panting slobbery mouths. Hanging laundry attempts to dry in the humid air. My laptop is dying.

Geez Louise

3 weeks. 504 hours. When you put it that way, it's been a while hasn't it. Don't ask me why it's been so long, quite honestly I can't even find it in myself to answer that. Yes, I have been busy but, I guess I lost sight of what I intended for this blog.

What if I told you I have big dreams? Would you laugh at them? I want to express myself, but sometimes I just don't know how. I don't wanna live someone else's dreams that's for sure.
I need some positive influences I think. I need a change.

Notes. 10.09pm. NJ

A swollen mouth has so much to say but no way to heal itself. Sometimes I feel like my soul has had enough searching for something that is held so highly. I feel like I live in a world littered with color and I can only see the Black and White of 1950s television shows. I don't mind though- sometimes people overlook the simple beauties of the world.
A sticky keyboard still shines with all of its might. Wires wind in and out of papers. Disorganization is my mother's way.