The smell of cinders and rain

"And when the fires came
The smell of cinders and rain
Perfumed almost everything
We laughed and laughed and laughed
And in the golden blue
Crying took me to the darkest place
And you have set fire to my heart"
Oh Natasha Khan you are lovely.

Thanks for the advice everyone about the situation!!!


So my parents haven't talked to me in 3 days straight except simple conversation such as "Hello, how are you?" or, "Come and get some dinner!"
Everything they say that should sound warm and welcoming has been replaced with a coldness that makes my teeth want to shutter.

And you want to know how I feel about it? I've been going about life normally because I feel that if they can't accept me as a person than maybe I shouldn't be warm to them? I don't really know how I feel...ALL I know is that I will no longer accept to be treated like a 16 yr old. Everyone makes mistakes and how they are raising me is to believe that adults don't make mistakes so if I get this taken care of while I'm young- I'll be perfect.

NOT TRUE. They think it's the end of the world when I do something that upsets them but if they talk to alot of other parents- they'll have worse problems between them and their children no doubt. It's just a piercing calm down.

ANYWAY- tell me

light lips or dark lips?

opaque tights or leggings?

gold or silver?

beret or riding cap?

floral scent or musk?

Random or structured?

...live your life or have someone plan it out for you?

yeah that's what I thought haha.

oh yeah and guess what- Scarlett Johansson has a septum piercing hells yea.

Drama

I don't mean to make this blog personal but I need something to turn to.
My parents found out last night that I had my septum pierced and freaked...I just don't know what to do anymore I feel like I am only noticed when I screw up and it's not fair to me. I guess that's how it is when you live the life of a lapdog. I feel like it's hard for me to be myself while also trying to please them. I can't win and I feel like I never will.
I feel like a burnt out cig- everyone just wants a new one after thy're done with it. I catch just keep starting over new.



Any suggestions?

Fashion and Olive Oil?

So can I please just say that I found out that Diesel- yes Diesel- Is selling wine and olive oil now? I mean...c'mon you make enough money off of your clothes!

Tell me what you think: here's the link: http://www.nylonmag.com/?section=article&parid=3611
Marc Jacobs is life as we all know :] and his runway looks are to die for! Fushia lips and big bows make these models look like youth






I think with fall comes awesome fashion so don't be afraid to get out there and be confident! I'm sick of everybody complaining about their bodies- their legs aren't long enough, their arms are chubby, their face is too small- you know what? At least you have what you got! some people aren't fortunate enough to have legs and arms you get me?

Have fun!

When I run in the dark...

It is officially fall. Is it just me or does anybody feel like fall is refreshing? When the cool air hits your face and you can start wearing layers to keep you warm.

...But sometime I miss how things used to be. Like Autumn at Juniata with friends and Halloween in high school. When you were a little too old to be trick-or-treating but not TOO old haha. I miss having a tight group of friends and now all i have is Lauren and a few that I'm making at Kean. I just wanna go back there. Somewhere only we know.

"And when the fires came,
The smell of cinders and rain
Perfumed almost everything.
We laughed and laughed and laughed
And in the golden blue
Crying took me to the darkest place,
And you have set fire to my heart."



Natasha Khan your lyrics are nostolgic.

Not to mention she has incredible style too!

Domestic Apparel

Yeah so you can say that I'm completely obsessed with two things in my life right now:

My navy blue american apparel body suit that flatters me oh so nicely...
oh yeah AND Leigh Lezark.
I've had an unhealthy obssession with her since Junior year of highschool so its been a good 4 years. I mean- whats not to be obssessed with?

She is an awesome DJ




She is gorgeous




Her hair is awesome




She's stylish




and mysterious.




I want to run into her in person one day...I don't know what I'd do actually.

...probably faint.

Made an extra 60 bucks for the wallet today babysitting which consists of dino nuggets, diet coke, playing video games, and reading bedtime stories.


Made two solid best friend figures at school and they're both in my drawing class. They're rad as hell. Basically my life at Kean right now.

Golden Rocks

As Beirut once said, In my good times there were always golden rocks to throw. It's my good time and things are goin.

I've been consumed with starting at a new school (ended up transferring to Kean Univeristy as an Art major!) Adjusting but I miss Pennsylvania. But I love New Jersey hehe

So Flip out ladies! Anna Sui presented a runway show at this latest fashion week where the models actually moved around to pose! She had them very Marsha Brady themed with 70s haircuts middle parts and bang. The pose they did was a hair flip here are the instruction (courtesy of Nylon Magazine 2009)
Here's how it works:

1. Put on some music, preferably The White Stripes, The Kills, or The Brady Bunch Family Album. Face the camera (or your friends) with a slight smile.

2. Step forward, hard, while keeping your body upright.

3. Smile even bigger, as if you're a '60s television star, while pivoting quickly on your front foot.

4. Whoosh around so your hair literally whips through the air.

5. Keep on walking




And Music: Jane Bang check her out!